wow

october was the last time i was here . a lot has happend since then
weve had family trouble & stuff like that.
christmas was a bust but things are getting better i would be in the mental if it wasnt for our friends & their support. you really know who your friends are when your going through shit.

last month had me saying goodbye to 2 friends one friend we were great friends in high school & did a lot of things together , she passed as well as the baby she was carring . it was so sad to be at her funeral. i only knew one person or really reconized one person because it has been years since i have seen anyone from way back when. but it was a nice rememberance of her

then on my way to her funeral i got a call that another friend comitted suicide the night before no one knows why i wish we knew but that question will never be answerd . i have so many memories of himn its not funny ive only known him about 2 years but we were great friends ,. i hope his family dont blame themselves for this usless loss.

im workig full time @ the bar & im thinking of writing again . im not sure what i want to write but im thinking its time again . i get so much out when i do write its not funny i see enough @ the bar that i could write a great drama becauase thats all thats there .


so im goig to try to write here every day or at least every second day ........